“You do care,” said Dumbledore. He had not flinched or made a single move to stop Harry demolishing his office. His expression was calm, almost detached. “You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it.”
― J.K. Rowling,
Also, I am doing my best to avoid spoilers. I hope I’m being discreet enough for those who have not read nor seen Harry Potter and want to uncover the story on their own. If you haven’t read the Bible, spoiler alert: Jesus dies, conquers death, comes back to life, and offers to save us all.
In addition to/conjunction with my PopSugar reading challenge this year, I am listening to all of the Harry Potter books on audiobook. I have read them all before, but the audio version has been a fun journey with a magnificent narrator. My least favorite book in the series is the fifth book, Order of the Phoenix. There are so many events and circumstances that just make my stomach turn. Injustice. Devastation. Betrayal. Chaos. Lies. It’s the longest book in the series, and, to me, it’s the hardest to read.
However, there is a conversation in the last few chapters between Harry and his school’s headmaster, Dumbledore. Dumbledore reveals his side of the story. He explains to Harry why things unfolded the way they did. He explains why he hid certain details from Harry in order to protect him. Harry still has a difficult time swallowing the events of his fifth year at Hogwarts, but he sees them with clarity in hindsight.
It’s no secret that terrifying things are happening in our country and our world as a whole. It is seemingly impossible to pass a day without hearing gut-wrenching news. Our world is broken and we are weary. Our everyday life is book five. There is corruption within our leadership. People are dying. Evil is taking over.
But the difference is that Harry Potter doesn’t know the ending. As Christians, we know that Jesus wins. As Christians, we know that this world is not our home. As Christians our faith lies in Jesus Christ as our Savior. We may…we will suffer. We will continue to see death and destruction. But we can rest assured that the end will be victorious, because the moment we leave this earth, we will rejoice with God in heaven. As it says in the Bible:
““O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?” The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain.” (1 Corinthians 15:55-58 NKJV)
I have always imagined that when we get to heaven, we will get to see a playback of our lives. Sometimes that thought makes me cringe, but other times I think about how my iPhone sized view of my world will be placed into the big picture of what God has seen in my life. I will see how all the pieces connected and how things I didn’t see shaped what I did. I will see how each decision built up the next and how “a sudden turn of events” was the orchestration of an all-knowing God.
No, Dumbledore is certainly not God. Dumbledore blamed himself for the way things unfolded in Harry’s life. He had regrets about things he kept hidden from Harry. He made mistakes. God doesn’t make mistakes. We do. The evil in this world is a result of a sinful man who passed that sin from generation to generation. We are broken, and no magic spells or wands or potions can fix us. Only God can. The bad in this world sends us running to Him. Until He comes back, may we pray for peace, may we pray for boldness to speak His name, and may we trust that all of this will make sense when we reach eternity.
Be near, Jesus.